July 16, 2013…Caleb and Phillip’s due date.
“My soul melts away for sorrow; strengthen me according to your word.”
As I sit in remembrance, of the beautiful boys I carried, my heart aches. Today should be a day of joy, excitement, even fear of how to keep up with twin boys! Instead I have a shattered heart and empty arms. Although the hurt is not near what it was 5 months ago, it is still ever present and I know that it will be for the rest of my life on earth. I long for Heaven. I long to be reunited with the pieces of my heart that left all too soon. The day will come. Until then, I will hide these Words in my heart:
“He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”
“The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you by His love; He will exult over you with loud singing. I will gather those of you who mourn for the festival, so that you will no longer suffer reproach.”